huixian!

2012-01-31T21:00:00.002+08:00

Went to relative's place last saturday to bai nian!
Didnt take much photos though :/
But had lotsa fun w my cousinsssss.
Was saying we can try to meet up at least once a month?
Can only see them like once a year or something.. :/

Anw after tt headed to Zhijie's house bai nian!
Sad WanTing couldnt stay over :/
But it's okayyyy, had fun & won alot of $$ too ;)
Ton till the next day, left his house arnd 830!
Went home, bathed & prepared then went to Nia house bai nian! ;)
Meet my beloved esixers hahahah!
Some only though, but miss themmmmm <3

This was one of the games we played.
Martel mix w orange, 7up or coke.
Wuoh the 7up one best, super nice.
I drank a few cups & got abit lightheaded alr though :/
But still, funny moments were there hahahah!

Left earlier to meet pretty boy to do work!
Okay wasnt really productive but came up w ideas for bcomm (Y)
Sigh I'm worried for the presentations :/
Cleared a few alr, but the most worrying one is still bcomm. ):
Nvm, this week would soon be over! ;)

Sigh so many ups & downs this week ):
I wanna talk to you too but idk how?
You told me to talk to you when I got problems yes.
But idk how to be the one to start the conver.
Still big sigh for this week ):

Bye

2012-01-28T11:23:00.002+08:00

We Not Naughty was a nice film, go watch :)

Had swensens's 1 for 1 ice cream on thurs I think!
So long nvr eat alr hahahahahaha ;)
Omygah I feel like eating again.
Hmm.

Yeah anw had filming for blaw ystd.
It was so fun okay!
Bu stress at the same time since I had the most parts.. :/
Hope the video turns out nice! :)

& yeah this week's quite alright.
Next week's the bomb..
So many presentations.
I haven start on my bcomm individual one too :/
Sigh.

Visiting relatives house later.
& going zj house ton for the night.
Might be meeting my esixers tml! ;)

Bye
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listening to tt song you told me to

2012-01-24T21:09:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR DA JIA ;)

Back home this afternoon!
Immediately had to rush miec proj but its okay.
Had a great time at M'sia alr :)

Took photos w some of them.
Sadly didnt had chance to take w the rest of my cousins :/
Omygah most of my cousins got tattoos now except for 1. :0
& yeah ofc they smoke, no surprise.
But hahaha they didnt change, still as funny ;)
Some getting married also, awww.
Been a year since I last saw them okay.
Wonder when will I see them again. :/

Yeah okay great sch starts tml.
I have yet to touch tutorials or revision for final exams.
So screwed ):

Ahh nvm, wish everybody fa da cai this cny! :)

Bye!

2012-01-20T23:47:00.004+08:00

Steamboat w npcc team last night :)
Our reunion dinner.
Not all of us were there, but 9 of us went!
Okay the atmosphere wasnt tt good though..
Think most of us were tired from sch & all. :/
Had a pretty good dinner though! :)

Today was just project project all the way.
Go sec sch also project.
Went home still project.
Went out thinking of project.
Ooo went to find papa at his workplace! :)
Dk he working at first, was just trying my luck & he was there!
Okay uhh shld be able to guess since he nvr reply me. :/
But so cool still hahah!

K then was supposed to have supper...
Nvm.

Leaving for M'sia tml.
Dk when I'll be back.
Let's just hope tt things will get better when I come back.

Excited to do my hair!
It's been a long time since I do treatment..
Ooo wait, I nvr do hair treatment before. :/

K projects>pack bag for m'sia>might blog again>sleep.

Bye!

2012-01-18T20:18:00.002+08:00

Wed's my best sch day ever.
It ends early, first thing.
Secondly, it lets me catch up on my sch work.
Okay today nvr really catch up, but did MIEC!
Needa rush & finish it on fri night!

Let me recall wad happened this week..
Okay presentations & stuff tiring me out.
POA quiz was.. :/
But nvm its over.
At least I tried my best.
BCOMM individual grading wasnt good, but group grading was :)
Teacher say ours was better than the rest.
Fingers crossed!!
I cant rmb wad happened on Mon. :/

Left w Thurs & I'm done for this week!
But sadly, tml has to be a long day :/

CNY COMING :)
Gonna go M'sia & enjoy myself for abit.
Really need this short getaway badlyyyyy.
Excited in a way, finally get to see my big family there ;)
& ooo, mum's sponsoring hair treatment there heehee!

Hmm my heart's been hurting these few days.
Frequently too.
Idk wads wronggggggg.
Think I shld visit the doctor soon or something. :/
Maybe after I'm back in SG!

Abit down coz of some problems in sch recently.
But got over them kinda fast at the same time.
Learning how to accept & let go!
This papa always counsel me too, thankssssss <3 HAHAH!
Just wish these problems wont find me again.
ALL GO AWAY

I feel like sleeping now.
Hahahahahahahahahaha

Bye
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Yeah life's gonna get better

2012-01-15T00:02:00.002+08:00

My baby cousin made my day today! ;)
She's so adorable & all.
& she's okay w me carrying her ahahaha!

Morning had project meeting.
Lunch at Hot Tomato :)
Then was busy all the way till now?!
Had reunion dinner then project meeting again..
Sigh really no time for myself.
& things have to crop up last minute too?! ):
Just wanna get this sem over & done w asap..

So sorry to this linboyz, seems like I cant make it everytime ):
But your broadcast stuff is really good!
Do keep it up, I'll tune in every week! :) ;)

Guess this year ain't good afterall.
But dont worry, I'll keep trying.

Bye!

2012-01-13T23:14:00.002+08:00

It feels like the end of everything, yet the start of something.

5days since I last posted.
Was v busy w sch these few days. #asusual
Its to the extent tt I have no time for myself.
But I'm glad most are done alr!
CSE & CQ both done :)
Next week got BCOMM presentation & we haven start preparing..
Sigh tml's gonna be another chiong day for projects. :/

Focusing on sch stuff now.
No more vball, not much work.
Just study.

Feeling kinda weird & messed up again..

Shall sleep early tonight.

Bye

2012-01-08T23:34:00.002+08:00

Like my hair todayyyyy :)

Work wasn't tt great.
But completed CQ & some studying there!
Mum told me not to work anymore but then again it's only one day. :/
We'll see if I can cope like tt!

Sch starts tml for JC ppl..
O lvl result release tml, goodluck my friends! :)
I'm getting back blaw tml, omygah. :/

K I really wish to learn drving fast but seems like my hopes are dashed.
Have to wait till oct to take.
Which means I can only get my license next year ):
Nvm, looking forward to the holidays now.
Plus cny! :)

SLEEP.

Bye!

2012-01-05T23:47:00.002+08:00

This pung tied this for me!
I shld have kept it there & pass off as a 15 to get the goodie bag.
Our goodie bags look like baggu bags this year! :0
Nice only :/

Just realized everything is worsening.
Okay no more bullshit, I'm fine.

Not gonna let anything stress me out alr.
If I drop out, guess tts coz I dont have a choice anymore.
Need to find my motivation to studyyyyy.
Push away all useless things!

Busy weekend, busy weekdays ahead.

Bye!

2012-01-04T22:36:00.002+08:00

Hi my dears.
Currently listening to Total Eclipse of the Heart.
It's a really nice song, do go listen!

Sch started & it's alright so far.
Just results tts kinda disappointing.
Almost failed POA, lucky teacher passed me at the end!
But still, I know if I nvr do anything to it I'll fail the final paper.
Tml getting back ITB & MIEC.
Mon then can get back BLAW.
Flunked BLAW for sure :/
BCOMM was alright though!
But there's so many things to do. :/

Made up my mind regarding some stuff.
Well except for one.
The one tts giving me the major heartache & headache.
I really dk how to handle this one. ):

Just booked library room from 7-9pm tml.
Gonna stay back & do some project work before going home.
Have to rushhhhhh, realized we dont have much time left!
Why make up tutorial from 5-7 when I end sch at 1 ):

Sleeping early tonight.
Goodnight everybody!
Let's hope tml's a better day :)

It's another 1111 post yo. ;)

Bye!

2012-01-02T23:19:00.002+08:00

Sch starts tml!
Excited to see some ppl :)
Not looking forward to results ohman.
Think I really gonna flunk everything ):
Didnt fail ITB, but I guess a D? :/
K nvm, shall hope for the best, expect the worse.

Stayed home today.
Settled some MIEC & CSE stuff.
Realized we're always trying to meet deadlines.
Not efficient enough but no motivation to do fast :/
I'll really die this sem, really really die.

Anw I'm doing mask now! :)
Then pack my bag & sleep.
Guess wad? I didnt do my tutorials.

Bye
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just how, did we turn out like this

2012-01-01T01:30:00.003+08:00

2012 Resolutions!

1. I need to be tactful.
Really cannot stand it when I make rude remarks at ppl, accidentally or not.
I just hate it when I make ppl feel bad ):
Gotta change it this year!

2. Be honest to myself.
At times I'm still lying to myself..
Trying hard to convince I can or it's still there when it's not. :/
Need to learn to face reality & everything tts gonna bring me down.
Need to admit my feelings too.
No more denying, no more avoiding.
I'm gonna be strongggggg :)

3. DONT THINK SO MUCH, BE POSITIVE
This year really too many things happen, makes me crazy thinking abt them.
Been hearing this sentence for soooooo many times from so many ppl.
Just coz I can't seem to control all the negative thinkings. :/
Have to stop it alr.
In 2011, I always make ppl worry abt myself.
It's time to stop all these!
Control stress, control pressure.
Yeah I can do this.
Thanks alot to those who cared & those who advised me.
Thanks alot papa, you really taught me alot. :)

Really thankful for 2011.
Though it wasn't good, I still had my best times :)
Didnt make the wrong choice coming to ngeeannpoly.
Met awesome ppl, did some crazy stuff w my closer friends.
Met mean ppl too, but thanks coz I learnt to be smarter now ;)
All I have to do is to cherish wad I have left.
& give wad I could to spread the love.

HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY! :)
All the best to you all :)
Wishing you guys here although nobody ever reads this except 1 or 2? :/
It's okay, love you all still! :)

Bye
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ilymn, wyk

2012-01-01T01:02:00.003+08:00

Spent nye w these peeps! :)
Too bad some couldnt join us ):
Anw was spending time at Germ's house watching KP2!
Hahaha sucha cute show.
Followed by the noose omygah super funny HAHAHA!
Chocolate fondue during the show too :)
Then had to leave as they gonna watch movie.
SO, countdown at the bus stop alone :/
But it's okay! Hahah heard the cheers from those counting down :) ;)
Went home & whole family sleeping.
Why they so boring, dw celebrate anything one :/
Nvm, won't ask for more!

Happy New Year everybody :)
Those I love, pls stay happy, stay healthy, stay strong.
We shall keep on fighting to make life good! :)
Another post coming up soon, my ny resolutions! :)

Bye!

2011-12-28T23:01:00.002+08:00

First day of camp, went quite smoothly.
Hike wasnt tt great & it drizzled ):
So now my cadet is sick, sigh.
I'm having a terrible headache too ):

Anw didnt stay overnight in sch.
Gonna stay tml night though! :)
Just done w resetting the drill test paper.
Really hope the sec1s pass their lcp test & drill test! :/

Okay so we haven really finish any project yet.
So dead, but still so relax.
Why uhh? This sem so tough but we all dont care.
Something wrong you know, its so different from last sem.
Last sem we all so chiong okay! :/

Just 3days left to 2012..
Gonna do up some 2012 resolutions!
Checked back my blog post on 31dec 2010.
My resolution was to become a more confident person & dont give up.
Didnt come true for both. Sigh.

I swear I'm gonna make my resolutions come true in 2012.

Ooo this is a 1111 post yo.

Bye!

2011-12-25T02:05:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS MY DEARS :) ;)

Spent christmas w these ppl! :)
Yes my sec sch friends.
I love themmmmm, really.
Even though we've been through many tough times & break-ups but we are still here.
So close w no secrets no tension just trust.
I can only be myself when I'm w them.
Like the really rubbish & crazy me.
I think sec sch friends are really your true friends.
No doubt we'll grow old tgt & remain as brothers & sisters!
Like a huge family :)

Enjoy your christmas everybody! :)
Looking forward to New Year Eve's countdown w these ppl again! ;)

Bye!

2011-12-24T00:46:00.003+08:00

Met relatives!
Couldnt attend last cc training though. :/
But its been sooooo long :)
Catch up w my cousins like finally. ;)
Anw after tt met up w this girl wan ting, kc & zj at town!
Caught Sherlock Holmes.
Great movie, I think Sherlock's a genius really. (Y)
Everybody shld go watch it! :)
Had coffee at tcc before heading for late dinner at Bishan~
Ooo received my christmas presents too! :D
Thanks to you alllllll <3

Meeting sec sch friends again laterl! :)
Christmas countdown at Nia's houseeeee :)
I hope this plan is successful..
I haven finish doing Christmas cards. :/
Shall make use of the time later!
These few days are gonna be greatttttt :)

Hike recee in the morning!

Sigh there are some stuff stuck in my head now.
Idk how to get them out.
Idk how to tell ):

Bye
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ppl get tired of me eventually, & they leave.

2011-12-23T00:25:00.002+08:00

Shopping w mum ystd!
Was great inititally, but she just had to annoy me :/
K anw she sponsored my shopping! :)
Bought new clothes for new year.
Found some christmas present too! :)
Ooo anw something happened to me & it was so epic.
Sigh.
Thanks to those who called & helped! :)
I escaped, like James Bond HAHAHA.
No idea why but I'm James Bond now.
I'm a GUY.

Cant control my emotions properly today..
Nvm.

Looking forward to later :)
Lots to catch up on w one another! :)

Bye!

2011-12-22T00:02:00.003+08:00

Just 3 days to Christmas.
Think this year it's gonna be different for me.
For the past 16years I haven been celebrating it.
It will be my virgin Christmas celebration this year! :) ;)
Yupp I'm looking forward to the countdown w peeps! ;)
Gonna be so cool, the whole street would be saying Merry X'mas to each other :D

Last few days were just doing projects & heading back to zh for npcc.
Hates how ngee ann makes us do so many redundant things ):
So looking forward to the bigbig holiday.
& npcc, really hope both teams get trained up asap for competition!

Ooo met up w papa, his mum & kaiwen at cp just now! :)
Dk how long nvr see papa alr.
Like 5days? :0
Seems so long though..

K anw, shopping tml! :)
For X'mas & my stuff heehee.
Finally, some time to relax myself.
No idea why but its been a tough week.

Bye!

2011-12-19T01:33:00.002+08:00

This month's my worst this year.
Esp this week.
I'm tired of everything la k.

Have to admit there were so many bad thoughts running through my mind.
I wanna rebel against the world so badly idk I had this hatred all along.
But no I would nvr go back to the past.
It's just sad tt wtv I do, is screwing up my own life.
Wad to do when ppl dont believe you?
Wad to do when ppl dont understand or appreciate you?
SUCK THUMB.

So when can things go right for once?

I really dw 2011 to end this badly, pls.

2011-12-18T01:27:00.002+08:00

Went Sentosaaaaaa! :) ;) :)
Had a great time there.
If only it didnt rain so much, it would be even better!
But its okay heehee.
Honestly I prefer sentosa to trainings in sch.
Somehow I feel & play better in sentosa :/
Anw made new friends!
They are really nice ppl :) :)
Didnt regret even though I went alone hahahaha.
Thanks everybody for today, esp papa! :)
Looking forward to the next one :D

Sigh got work later on.
I'm gonna be so bored at work.
Any kind soul wanna visit? :D
HAHAHAH kidding, they dont allow visitors anymore :/
Gonna satisfy my gongcha craving though! ;)

So, life's pretty much the same huh.
Need to forget abt the past.
What doesnt kill you, makes you stronger.

Bye!

2011-12-17T03:10:00.002+08:00

Shopping w Jingwen :)
Chinatown then Bugis!
Just bought a top, hahah.

K movie was great!
Mission Impossible: Ghost Protocol I think O.O
Throughout the movie I was screaming in pain w the actors hahahaha lame.
But watch it & you will know why, seriously.
Nice show (Y)

So after movie went to play pool.
So off-form. :/
But anw since pool part things alr went haywire for me.
Shld have just went home. K nvm.
Got a lil upset & everything.
Surprisingly played better -.-
Hahah went home arnd 1plus.

Thanks Alvin for the tickets :)
Thanks papa & Baohui for showing concern :)
Thanks those who made me upset; I'm coming back strong.

Still thinking if I shld go sentosa later.
Sigh.
Not sleeping tonight.

Bye

2011-12-15T23:49:00.002+08:00

Sports day! :)
Bball & vball only.
Didnt play badminton but still it was fun! :)
Vball first, & so embarrassing.
Cant play properly, again. ):
& there were pros arnd, lucky they left early. :0
Bball was great though! :)
Team w Na Ho, won R & Ju Tan! :D
Heehee, been really long since I touched bball.
Kinda miss sec sch times when we play almost everyday after sch..
Its okay, time to move on from sec sch times.

Had a great dinner w them at Yoshinoya. :)
But we forgot to get gongcha ):
Gonna get it tml at Scape! :)
Yes finally going to watch a movie! :)
Ooo before tt meeting Jingwen first.
Hahaha, our first movie tgt after knowing her since April. :0
Its sad Rose cant join in.. ):
The 3 of us really nvr do things tgt, WHY ):
Nvm, still love you girls :) <3

Okay anw, looking forward to shopping w her tml! :)
& meeting papa & friends :)
Dress up time! HAHAHAH

Bye
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So tell me, wad shld we do now?

2011-12-14T20:35:00.002+08:00

End of tests!!
Relieved coz I didnt flunk MIEC.
I think :x
Worried for MCQ only.
Ooo I'm worried for POA, Blaw & ITB.
Wah tt sucks ):
Will try not to think so much..
Now is projects time ):

Ooo gotta thank those who keep encouraging me to do better next time! :)
All the jiayous & goodlucks too :)
Really xie xie.
Thanks papa for all the help too! :) :)
But I think I'm gonna disappoint you.. ):
Okay nvm, get back result & we'll see! *cross fingers*

Had a pretty good afternoon :)
Spent it w TB02 sem1! :)
Some only though, there were only 7 of us.
Went IKEA for meatballs!
Nice :)
Ooo before tt it was raining so heavily we were drenched :/
After eating we walked arnd IKEA likaboss. ;)
& yeah did stupid stuff which kinda cheered me up hahah.
Really miss TB02 ppl ):
Photos up here as soon as I get them! :)

Time to get serious.
But idk wad to do & how..
See how it goes.

Bye
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Need a lil assurance

2011-12-11T23:17:00.002+08:00

Must blog today, 11/12/11.
Why?
First month since I know my papa on 11/11/11! :D
Celebration is? STUDY.
Hahahahaha super funny.
Have to admit I got a v cute papa seriously! :)
But he just like to disturb ppl & lie to me tsktsk.

Okay anw was supposed to meet the mambo3 ppl at skcc study.
Ended up I went to visit the doc for my medicine.
If not for CTs, I won't even bother.. :/
Morning was so cold, woke up shivering.
Have to walk all the way to rp to see doc.
In tt kind of weather ):
Pls dont let me catch a cold or something! :/

ITB paper tml. Then 2days to end of CTs!
Not looking forward to dec holidays coz I'll be pretty much alone. :/
Christmas, New Year's Eve, & New Year.
Okay nvm, good things will come my way eventually. :)

Goodluck again for ITB! :)

Bye!

2011-12-09T23:20:00.003+08:00

I want the smile to stay there.

FIRST PAPER TML & I'M FREAKING OUT.
Haven done POA this entire week & I only started at 630?
& right now I'm blogging. Seriously -.-
But yeah short post & I'm off to study POA again.
Sigh I really wanna get CTs done & over w.
Thinking if I shld burn midnight oil..? :/

9/12's not really a good day.
Role play screwed up.
17thmonth but nth much.
CT tml.
Plus I found out something I wasn't supposed to & it got me upset. ):
Not coz I found out.
Its more of feeling sorry for tt person.. )':
I'm getting so affected coz tt person is v impt to me tts why.

Dont wanna think so much anymore.
Things gonna get better! :)
Move on & dont look back :)

Everybody, goodluck for POA!
Papa jiayou too :)
Hope you read this heehee HARLOOOO :D

K study.

Bye!

2011-12-07T23:03:00.003+08:00

This is my Jingwen! :) <3
Realised me Jingwen & Rose dont have 1 picture tgt.
Me & Rose also dont have much.
Omygah how can.
Need to find chance take photo tgt! :0

Anw today suddenly had the study mood.
So it was pretty productive.
I finished vitiating factors :D
Means I'm almost done w blaw!
Gotta move on to MIEC & POA soon..

Thanks Rose's dad for fetching us home from sch :) :) :)

Anw was rather happy in the morning! :)
Till it kinda dropped abit in the afternoon.
Right now I'm okay though.
I just hope it stays okay. :/

Everybody, just 1 week left to dec holidays.
Jiayou!

Just dw to think so much now.

Bye!

2011-12-06T23:24:00.002+08:00

Starting to lose everything & everybody bit by bit.
But idk how to make them stay..
Just when things start to get better it has to become like tt. ):

CTs first paper this sat!
Totally not prepared.
I'm just aiming for a pass.
Got a strong feeling I wont be able to.
I really dislike sch ):

Yes I hate sch but still have to study.
This whole week I'm gonna stay in sch & study till 9pm.
Really hope it helps. :/
Jiayou to all out there studying for CTs! :)

Have to thank Alvin & papa for the advices..
Really appreciate them. :)
Hope things get better.
Really really hope.

But idk wad to do now.
Idk how to make my life better.

Maybe I'm just not tt strong afterall.

2011-12-03T22:00:00.003+08:00

Thurs had vball!
Can say it wasnt v good.
Some ppl just dont think okay, annoys me.
But I had a great supper w papa & alvin! :) ;)
Fri no sch, but went to study!
Studied blaw.
At night mahjong.
Then papa sent me home! :)
Walked all the way from his house there. :0
I realised I'm laughing more arnd papa & friends.
Really really glad I have their company. :) :) :)

Today's just bad. ):
Lack of sleep can cause bad mood I think.
I'm just in a bad mood all the way today ):

Not working tml, gonna studyyyy.

No idea why I'm listening to Huan Zhu Ge Ge songs.
But they're nice!
Okay do work time.

Sigh I hope papa recovers soon.
& my friends who are sick, takecare of yourself!
Tests coming..

Bye!

2011-11-30T18:47:00.002+08:00

I think my life's better now.. :')
Have to really thank a few ppl who came into my life esp papa :)
Thanks for all the care & love! :)

Okay, so mostly E-learning stuff done.
This week's gonna end soon too!
So far everything's okay :)
Fri no lesson, shiokkk.
But night time got agm. :0
Kinda looking forward to it hahaha geek specs! :)

V tired ughhh.
Sch really draining us man.
& suddenly I feel unwell dk wads wrong.
My hands' been trembling badly since morning also!
Sigh #whysoweak
Okay I'm gonna have dinner & study now.

Bye!

2011-11-25T22:58:00.002+08:00

HI DA JIA
Look at my hair :/
Feels like bangs to me. :/
Not used to it man, keep on touching it ):
Shldnt have cut it like tt!

Okay anw,
You're the apple of my eye not bad.
Super funny!
Quite sad also actually.
The 2 of them didnt get tgt awww.
The guy & girl v compatible! Sigh.
A really realistic show.
Okay la I know I'm slow coz I just watched it only?
But heck.
I wanna watch Breaking Dawn!
I wonder if I got the time though.
Next week proper lessons again,
Followed by tests coming right up!
Sigh, bo xim.

K cc training tml!
Really hope fever doesnt come back anymore.
Enough of it this year alr.

Bye!

2011-11-21T22:53:00.002+08:00

E-learning's adding on to my stress level..
Cant help but feel so troubled over the amt of work we have to finish.
Worse thing is I cant do anything to get over tt pressure ):
& recently so affected by ppl arnd me.
Wtv they do, wtv they say, affects me badly in 1 way or another.
I think this isnt gonna stop till I stop caring abt it.
But once I stop caring, I will be alone.

Really hate how my life is right now I just wish there's somebody or something to just get rid of all these for me.
Pls?

2011-11-18T00:36:00.002+08:00

OUT YSTD ;)
Finally a good getaway from sch work & all.
Went out w the sec sch peeps!
Celebrated yan's bday, & yax's too! :)
Headed to Cafe Cartel after sch today.
After tt had htht w the girls & rj!
Seriously worried for Jiayi la, sigh.
Hope her next 1 year in jc is smooth sailing.. :/
We'll be there for you my dear! :)
So be strong alright, & hang on :)

Ooo we talked nonsense too.
Laughed quite abit!
I missed hanging out w these ppl.. )':
We shld go out often! :)
& only managed to take tt photo today,
didnt take w the whole group coz we forgot abt it :/

Anw gonna have a long pw day later.
Ohwell.

Wonder if boyf's asleep :0

Bye!

2011-11-14T01:03:00.002+08:00

Work was boring.
Sch's draining me out.

FML run later on.
4k hahaha gonna get myself killed.
& then have to skip polympics.
Sigh.

I wish life's easier.
I wish I would stop screwing things up.

I think I really shld stop working.

Bye!

2011-11-13T01:19:00.002+08:00

Hi, ystd morning was bad.
So was afternoon.
Am gonna skip those times anw.

Boyf came for dinner! :)
Tts the only good thing abt ystd :)

Last few days were busy.
W sch & stuff.
I think I'm gonna stop working.
Or maybe not.
Sigh idk. ):
I dont have time for studies & work at the same time. ):
But I really hate studying ohgosh.

So..work later on.
I cant finish blaw tutorial ):
Both W3 & W4's.
Think she's gonna aim me during class tml.
Eeeeesh. :/

Anw I'm happy to see my boy! :) <3

Bye!

2011-11-09T22:50:00.002+08:00

Really dying.
Can you believe Tues I survived 12hrs of sch on 2.5hrs of sleep.
Not inclusive of travelling time!
Almost died omw home tt night.
POA quiz suck.
Not tt I didnt do well, it was how the quiz hanged at qn10 -.-
In the end did the quiz on the paper.
So now idk my score ):

Tues night helped out in polympics.
Saw yurong & raymond playing!
Shocked can, but somehow got tt zh feeling back.
Awwww. :')
Although they didnt win all the matches, but still!
OOO I WAS THE LINESMAN.
Damn bored can, stand down there watch only.
Tml got another session omygah.
Another long day ):

Had enough of long days alr.
But today was fun!
We had a few breaks in btw.
Played taboo in the library games room.
First time laughing so much from a taboo game hahahahah love my girls ;)

& yupp, today's our 16months anniversary! <3 <3
Didnt see dardar for quite some time alr.. ):
Stupid sch made me so busy.
Sigh.
But anw I'm gonna see him soon! :)
He's asking me out hahahahaha!
Awww love my boy :)

K gonna sleep early tonight.
#MUST

bye!

2011-11-07T23:13:00.002+08:00

Been so busy during the weekends I have no time to settle my sch stuff.. ):
Fri had meeting w np CIs regarding ccteam.
I think all plans are gonna fail coz TOs just dont approve.
Which means its a waste of time ):
Sat night had buffet dinner w the rest for Ton's enlistment.
At Kiseki, & it was a weekend.
Defnitely cost a bomb but it was v nice! ;)
Although went home & I gained like 4kg? ):
Next day met them again for Eunice's 21st!
So we met up w each other for 3 consecutive days. :0

See how packed my schedule is?
& I merely finished MIEC, 1st qn of BLAW & POA.
Really gg okay, plus there's a quiz tml.
I hate how hectic my schedule is.
Esp when the priority has to be studies.
I.HATE.SCHOOLING.
Somebody help me pls? )':

I'm just gonna go for POA quiz like tt.
Super unprepared.

Sigh wad an ending to my weekend ):

Bye

2011-11-03T23:00:00.002+08:00

My girls of TB06! :)
Photo taken by Chaowen, thanks so much! :)
Okay so it was taken on day1 of presentation.
So far bcomm's alright!
As for itb.. *cross fingers*
Anw the group's gonna meet up to improve on it tml :)

Yes the hectic week is finally over!
Was busy since mon okay. ):
Cant rmb wad I did but I did something definitely.
Tues had to skip POA lecture for filming.
Wed was rehearsing for bcomm & itb's presentations.
Madness I tell you, & I'm so glad its all over. #yeahman

I think my weekend break start alr HAHAHAHAH fri's class no need care.
I mean its CQ! :/

ooo I got back my laptop alr.
But everything's gone ):
Have to reinstall the stuff at IT helpdesk tml.
I got no idea where's that now :/

Hmm, I gotta catch up on the syllabus now.
Been putting my tutorials aside for too long.
Thankfully there's no sch on Mon.
But UGHHHHHH why is there such a thing called "make-up tutorial/lecture". ):

I miss my boy btw ):
Haven seen him since my bday, which is arnd 2 weeks ago? ):
& pw is still draining him out ughhh hate pw ):
Lucky the holidays are coming for him!
Finally he can have some time to rest :')

Alright gotta go~
I'm actually using my laptop & pc at the same time #likaboss HAHAHAH
Will be back soon!

Bye!

2011-11-01T23:46:00.002+08:00

Its November! ;)
The month I've been looking forward to since august?
I think :0
Anw, pw is finally gonna be over soon! :)
& boyf can finally get some rest during the holidays :)
Ooo its just a sad thing I start sch.. :/

Anw haven been blogging for quite some time~
Life's not tt great, I think its sch tts why ):
Anw work load's coming in heavy,
2 presentations on thurs itself.
Well I was quite nervous over the solo one, but I think I'll do fine :)
I HOPE *cross fingers*
& I've been going for work from my agency.
Today's the video shoot!
I think its quite alright, just tt it was rather tiring.
The other models weren't tt friendly too :/
But I got over it & made some new friends :)
$$ roll in quickly plssssssss :)

& yes tml's sch again.
Smack right back to reality.
Gonna turn in soon!
Shagged.

Bye!

2011-10-29T17:10:00.002+08:00

I felt really messed up these few days..
But I'm glad there are ppl who still care :)

So, the usual.
Thurs vball, fri meeting, today audition.
I'm really losing faith in vball alr.
Sigh.
Meeting was great.
Settled many things & had quite a good laugh.
JUST TT I HAD MY CURFEW ):
Been so long since I LAN or pool w them alr. :/
Ooo audition was good also.
I really hope I get selected for the video shoot!
*cross fingers*

Tutorial time.
Gotta finish blaw & bcomm today.
Life w/out laptop sucks anw ):

I just wish you show you care.

Bye!

2011-10-26T21:55:00.004+08:00

Just wanting myself to do things better. ):

Vball wasnt good, but it was a laughing session :)
Alright at least I had some fun.
Work today was..smooth?
Rj & Jet came to visit!
Saw some zh seniors too :)

Met some buyers, went for dinner & then homed.

Shld probably do somemore tutorials then head to bed.

Anw boyf's rushing out their report.
Really hope he wont tired himself out. ><
I hate pw. ):

Bye!

2011-10-23T23:17:00.003+08:00

My baby nephew! ;)

Went for baby nephew's first month celeb today!
At chiltern park's clubhouse.
Wanted to visit nia but she not at home ><
Ohwell, had a gd time catching up w my relatives! ;)

Panasonic Forum on Sat!

Was the receptionist w Rose for the day! :D
Heehee, I swear we looked damn formal.
Blazer & all, ppl were staring.
Prob thinking why so young alr business woman HAHAHA.
I like tt feeling!
Got me abit more interested in doing business when I get my diploma :)
Anw I think it wasnt tt tough, we got to sit & tick names tts all.
So..easy money I guess! :)
After tt went shopping for formal wear at G2000!
Bought this pants for my presentation next week. ><
Went home then out to meet my np peeps after tt!

Had dinner at Fish&co, thanks for the treat guys :D
They almost got the crew to sing me the bday song ohgosh.
Thank god dont have or else idk how embarassed I'll get ><
Saw quite a few ppl at Dhoby too.
Went home & slept! :)

Hmm sch's starting tml, w lectures & tuts proper.
Sigh I think I'll get super tired.
I must rmb to buy POA tb or else die alr ):

K gonna sleep after I get the text from boyf! :)
So happy to receive his call just now heehee <3

Bye!

2011-10-21T23:45:00.002+08:00

Was staring at my presentation qn & I got no idea wad to do abt it ):
Presentation's in week3 omygah ):
In front of 37ppl's no joke okay. Me no like.
& I heard my teacher's the strictest okay!
My A fly away alr.

Anw CQ was bad.
The teacher was good though, its the class.
Haiya T20, can be abit more enthu?
Like tt our group work die alr leh.
Its 55% ohgosh ):
2hrs gone just like tt, had lunch w mambo3 peeps & homed.

The moment I reached home I just washed up abit & napped.
My sore throat's annoying me so badly la ):
Woke up & it got worst -.-
I'm just hoping it will go away soon..

Work w Rose tml! :)
Gotta wear formal w blazer O.O
Waking up at 5am so I have to sleep now!

Goodnight :)
Let tml's work be good ><

Bye!

2011-10-20T21:17:00.004+08:00

I had a great bday celeb w my family, my friends & boyf ;)
Dinner w family at Swensens ystd night,
Blowing of bday cake w my poly friends this morning,
Dinner & movie w my boyf this evening! <3
Gotta thank those who wished me whether its on fb twitter texts or ftf ;)
& Ooo special thanks to Rose, Ju, Naho, R, S, A, R.Y, & W for the card & presents :D
Really love you guys so much for making my day :D

Boyf bought me this super pretty bracelet.
W our names carved on it! :D
& I really love it too.
Thanks so much dar, I love you! <3
Heehee :)

So now I'm back at home.
So shagged alr.
There's IS tml! ):
Only go sch for 2hrs.
Still thinking if I shld go zh tml morning..
After 1 day of fun, there's still stuff to complete.
Boyf got his pw to do too ): Sigh.

Hmm, gotta say, bday celeb in poly sure feels different.. :)
Its a good day good day let it stay this way~

Alright I'm gonna open my presents now!
*excited* heehee.

Bye!

2011-10-18T23:52:00.002+08:00

My first day of sch was pretty much screwed up.
We all dk tutorials were cancelled -.-
SO, I could have slept more & only attend the 2-4pm lecture ):
IT RAINED SOMEMORE.
I cant explain how much I hate rainy days.
But other than all these unhappy stuff, I get to meet my girls!
Like finally I see Rose <3
1month plus didnt see her although she lives at the block beside mine. O.O
Hahah she's still as lovable awwwwww :)
& my new classmates are cool.
Girls dominating though hahaha. :D
I just hope I can fit in better tts all..

Second day of sch which is today, RAINED ):
& BLaw's so hard to absorb ):
POA too I got a feeling it'll be like BStats sigh.
Ooo ooo taking MIEC this sem.
Confirm same grade as MAEC haiyaaaaaa.

Had my seafood fried rice cravings satisfied! :D
& hmm let's hope the rest of this week is alright..

Finished MIEC & BLAW's tutorial! :)

Going sleep now nights!

2011-10-16T23:01:00.002+08:00

Not looking forward to sch tml sigh.
Not really keen to meet new ppl, get sch work & projects ):
Its like a repeat of sem 1.1 but this time worse.
Briefly looked through my modules & there's 2 solo presentations.
Think I'm gonna fail tt module or something ohcrap. )':
Gonna get back to the print notes & chiong proj days.
BIG BIG SIGH.

Anw meeting Jingwen to take shuttle bus tgt! :)
Just like old times~~
Rose couldnt join us though, but I'm still gonna see her tml! ;)
& Ooo, same class as my sis, bro-in-law & mummy! ;)
Class shld be good w them arnd, I hope!

11:11 Let sch be good pls.

Bye!

2011-10-15T23:18:00.002+08:00

Bloopbloop, photo from a few days ago~

Sales was pretty good today! ;)

My day's normal.
Except tt boyf didnt reply any of my whatsapp msg ):
I think I sent like 15?
From last night till now you know!
Hahahah, dk wad tt boy's doing.

Tml last day of holiday.
& I'm working from morning till 8pm. ):
Hmm, gonna ask if boyf wanna have dinner w me tml! :)
But hmm, yet again its so late for dinner.
Ohwell..

I got totally no idea wad to prepare for sch.
I only know tt wed & thurs needa bring laptops.
The rest..we'll see how it goes?
Not looking forward to sch work & new classmates..
Excited to see my girls though! :)
Sigh this sem's gonna be tougher.
ME NO LIKE.

Ooo I alr rejected 2 job offers.
Pls can the next one dont clash w my timetable ):
Make it in the evening till night time or something? ><
Ohgosh I really needa earn tt amt back.

K just finished my dinner.

Bye!

2011-10-15T02:32:00.003+08:00

I always do my reflections in the middle of the night & it sucks ):

Right now I'm just thinking abt some things I regretted doing a few days ago.
Sigh I think I accidentally hurt dar's feelings without knowing ):
Sian I feel like sucha lousy girlf.
You know everytime I get this insecure feeling tt whenever I did something wrong,
Boyf's feelings for me will just fade off.
Yes I'm feeling tt now! ):
I don't get why am I so afraid of losing him & why I feel he deserves someone better.
I keep trying to change myself for him but I wonder is it enough.

So many things happened recently,
I really wonder if he still loves me as much as he did before.
I know I shldnt be thinking but seriously..
When a person stops confiding in you,
Stops searching for you,
Stops asking abt your day,
What does it mean?

Bad night.
I can't wait to wake up tml & see dar's reply. ><

Bye!

2011-10-14T01:22:00.002+08:00

Nobody likes to play w lousy players.
I couldnt help but agree more.
Being the saboteur in the team sucks.
Got the urge to give up alr..

Work later on at Tanjong Pagar.
My first job from my modeling agency!
Well hope it goes well.. :/
After tt meeting the 2e6 peeps again for dinner, movie & sleepover. :)
Dinner's a yes defnitely.
But movie & sleepover, think I'll be giving them a miss.. ):
Have to see how tml too. Sigh.

Today work, sat work, sun also work.
My last 3 days of holiday seems pathetic.
But idk how to spend them better so might as well :/

Anw idk wad to prepare for first day of sch.
Anybody? :/

Shall try to sleep earlier today.

Bye!

2011-10-13T03:44:00.002+08:00

It's 3:45am & I still can't sleep.

Laid on my bed for a few hours alr.
Too many thoughts running in my head..

I guess sometimes I worry too much.
I care too much too.
Abt the wrong thing at the wrong time.

But wads left to do when my heart decides to feel this way?
No matter how much I convince myself.

Ohwell, at least boyf's home safely everytime he goes mia. :)

Sigh.
Shld try falling asleep.

Goodnight.

2011-10-12T21:51:00.003+08:00

HIII TTS THE CAKE TT NIA & I DECO FOR RJ ;)
Yupp celebrated RJ's bday ystd w 2e6 peeps & dar!
He went hahahaha so happy to see him :)
At first things were kinda messy,
everybody was late & had to wait till 7plus.
When the meetup time was 6pm. O.O
I went to collect my photos & more waiting sigh.
Nia waited for me when I was collecting the photos! ;D
Then my booker thought Nia was my mum HAHAHAH.
But awww nia said she love me lika babygirl <3 <3
Went to join the rest at Minds Cafe.
Its a great place for gatherings!
Can eat & play boardgames at the same time.
We shld really go there next time man ;)
Had a great time there, then JC ppl left.
Including boyf ):
Didnt really get to talk to him too.. ):

After Minds cafe went for supper!
Rochor tau huay. :)
Ofc left the poly peeps la.
Went home after tt coz nia not feeling well alr.
I hope she's fine! :/

Today was just stay home wed.
Tml's gonna be busy meeting traders.
Sigh another buyer not replying me.
& another buyer change date for meetup.
Getting kinda sian of this kind of stuff alr.

& boyf's not replying msg or answering calls.
Wondering wads he doing..
Playing ball maybe? Or doing work.
Sigh idk. I always dk.

Btw my photos are average.
Thank god they arent bad :)

Bye!

2011-10-10T20:37:00.002+08:00

In a pretty good mood now ;)
Coz called boyf & had a funny conver hahahah!

So, today's stay home monday.
Supposedly need to go bedok for meetup.
End up postponing it to tml coz the buyer had something on.
At first the buyer didnt reply my msg AT ALL -.-
Luckily I didnt waste time going :0

ANW, tml's RJ bday!
Gonna celebrate it at dhoby's minds cafe. ;)
Quite excited abt the cake thing! HEEHEE

Gonna cut hair tml w bro.
Just wanna trim it abit coz its too long :/
Ooo I had a great day watching anime non stop hahahaa.

K off to anime.

Bye!

2011-10-09T23:49:00.003+08:00

15month w dar :)

Look at this boy, happy when all the food comes hahahahahah ;)
Anw we had lunch at 18chefs!
The one at Simei.
Ate till super full.
For the rest of the day I didnt eat anything anymore. O.O
After lunch he had to rush off for pw meeting, while I went to meet nia!
Got to see him for awhile only..
Really wonder when's the next time I can see him again :/
But anw it was a short & sweet meetup w him :)

Met up w nia for cake deco session!
It was quite fun! My first time trying it out.
Our cake is nice okay, not gonna show it here till tt day's over! ;)
Yupp then walked arnd nex trying to find some nice phone covers.
Sadly didnt find anything nice, but nia got her bb cover! :)
Got gongcha, nia left & I went for work.

Today's work was..bad.
Not the sales, but I had a hard time trying to stay awake. ):
Luckily its only for 5hrs. :0

Gonna meet buyers tml..
Got this buyer nvr reply me.
Sigh so disappointed in this kind of buyers pls.

Damn tired I'm gonna turn in early tonight!
Hope boyf's sleeping soon..
So late alr..

Short&sweet 15th month! :)

Bye!

2011-10-07T00:40:00.002+08:00

Vball training turned into pool session.
Was raining ):

Those are my vball girls! :)

Anw before heading to clementi, did 3 meetups :)
Cash deals & trade. YAY :)
Then damn unlucky, got out of Clementi & it started raining D:
Was still looking forward to playing vball! (Although I suck at it :/)
Then headed to Bukit Timah Plaza for pool~
I play until forgot the time!
When I checked my phone it was alr 10plus.
Decided to cab home since my house so far away ):
Why cant Clementi be right next to Sengkang man.
Yeah most of my $$ ended up as cab fare. :/

Later got meeting w the usual peeps.
Serious alr, tml's meeting v impt.
I feel like joining them after dinner.
Dont feel like spending $$ anymore ):
I shall decide when I wake up later!

Anw boyf still got pw to finish.
Dont like it ):
His house phone also got problem alr D:
His iphone keep no batt too! D:
Nvmnvm, I'm gonna have lunch w him on Sunday! :)
Been 2-3weeks since I last saw him alr..

Okay gonna sleep soon! :)

Bye!

2011-10-06T01:43:00.003+08:00

DIDNT TAKE A PIC OF MY BABY NEPHEW >(

Went to visit him w my cousin ystd night :)
He's soooooo cute & so small!
Like really really small.
Awwwwwww :')
I got to carry him for awhile & he fell asleep in my arms.
Sucha cute lil thing.
I also wanna have baby heehee.
NOT NOW LA.
But I wantttttttt hahahaha.

Anw morning to afternoon was busy running arnd SG.
Yupp my fb shop business kinda good :)
Earning arnd $40 bucks alr heehee.
Traded many nice clothes too!
Helping some friends & cousin sell their stuff too :)
The thing is sch's starting so..might lie low on tt.

Ooo dad told me he's having a sore throat.
Sigh he always get this kind of illness one.
Plus he still gotta work D:
You know tts one of the reasons why I wanna work hard to earn $$.
Idw my parents to work so hard anymore I wanna play a part in earning too.
So that their life could be better, & so can mine.
I joined modeling, I take up a few jobs, I set up fb shop.
All coz I can use the $$ I earn to let the ppl I love have an easier life.
Be it parents, bro, or my boyf.
Boyf especially, since we're gonna spend the rest of our lifes tgt. :)
I wanna start earning now!
So by the time I grow older, I'll have a fair bit of amt to let my parents enjoy life.
Boyf no need to work so hard earning money for us.
At least I wont want him to get all tired from working ):

Although my intentions can be mistaken,
like eg, modeling for fame, fb shop for shopping & stuff.
I just want to do it for my loved ones.
They are the ppl who I care abt the most.

OKAY WHY SO SERIOUS.
Hahahahahahaha.

I'm taking a positive look at life :)

Bye!

2011-10-04T01:56:00.002+08:00

2am sharp! O.O

Anw 3Oct wasnt a good day too..
Well I went to meet up w this buyer,
but she keeps changing the venue & time uhh.
Kinda annoyed by her -.-
& I woke up specially for this ):

So went home then told my mum abt the fred perry bags thing.
Second round of lecturing.
Dont get why ppl tend to rub it in. :@

But seriously, this holiday really money disaster.
Who the hell would spend so much in just 3weeks.
Only fools & stupid ppl like me lor. D:
K FINE IDW THINK ABT IT ANYMORE.

On a brighter note, today which is 4oct, I'm meeting my girls!
For dinner :)
Its been so longgggggggg :')
Ooo before tt meeting Keith to pay him money.
Plus lunch too.
V long nvr talk to this guy alr huh.
O lvl killing them hahah.
Think I need a break from everything too.
Gonna stay at Nex all the way from 2pm-7pm then meet my girls. O.O

Last paper for dar today! :)
I made a 11:11 wish, for him to pass promos!
11:11 pls come true okay! :)

Okay I'm gonna sleep soon~~

Bye!

2011-10-02T23:11:00.003+08:00

Really the worst day of my life..

Morning got woken up by boss to go work.
She called from overseas can you imagine how angry she was.
Had a miscommunication w her so I thought today I wont be working.
In the end I was supposed to work today. ):
So rushed down to Nex, started work at like 2pm.
Wasted 3hrs which is $15 sigh.
Not the $$ problem actually.
Its how boss puts all the blame on me when her instructions could be clearer.
Sigh ):
So at first mood ruined by this but gradually got better.
Just tt I had really no mood to do sales.
But sales were quite good today O.O

Moving on, this customer came & decided to buy 2 caps.
Okay so I say I can give 10% discount, which I gave.
But she keeps arguing for more discount, telling me to call boss for permission -.-
The thing is boss's overseas, so I said boss overseas cant contact.
So she was like, "I ask discounts you say boss overseas, you dont lie."
Instant wtf seriously.
Calling me a liar. So I call you cheapskate?
Bully? Unreasonable?
I insisted saying only 10% la, in the end she still buy.
But really, damn sian of being accused.
Somemore in front of so many ppl.
Second time being called a liar.
Sigh.

Then there's this fred perry bags thing.
I asked a few ppl to order tgt so the bags will come in cheaper.
In the end, the person I ordered from got scammed by her supplier.
Still not sure if its true, but who wouldnt reply or answer texts/calls if they did nth wrong?
So she's pretty positive tt she got scammed.
& She said she cant refund me since she paid the supplier alr.
So, I went arnd informing those ppl abt this bad news.
Tt the bags might not come, & we cant get our $$ back.
Ofc some ppl immediately asked for refund & those who haven pay not willing to pay me.
Was v pressurized & idk wad to do.
I mean I didnt expect things to turn out this way.. ):
Had a talk w boyf, & ofc he did the same thing everytime something goes wrong; lecturing me.
Wtv he said was true, tt I shld nvr asked ppl to order w me.
I shld nvr order even, & pass the $$ to the girl.
I shld like think abt the consequences first before making the move.
Yeah I agree w wad he told me, but sometimes when I'm alr so pressurized,
I just want someone to turn to, someone who will hold me tgt & keep me from breaking down..

I decided to pay everybody who ordered from me.
Its my fault, I'll take responsibility for it.
At least paying you guys I'll feel better really.
Keep the money alright guys?
If the bags ever come, then buy from me again :)
I just hope tt either the bags or my $$ comes back..
We'll see if the police report solve it.

Wad a bad day right.
& I look cui the whole day D:
Luckily tml there's nth going on.
I'm gonna rest at home & have some time alone to myself.
Alr cried my heart out just now, so I'm telling myself to MOVE ON.
& believe things will get better. #optimism
Its october! My bday month!
It will be great :)

Shld be meeting my sisters on Tues night! :)
Ooo & dar's finshing his promos soon~
He will do fine, he's sucha smart guy :)

Off to eat dinner.

Bye!

2011-10-01T18:12:00.003+08:00

Had a long day today.
Went to sooooo many places for trades & shopping :)
Yupp had manymany new clothes alr!
Enough for next sem :)

Morning had cramps.
Bad cramps.
Was really rolling on my bed at 8am -.-
But after awhile it was alright.
Ooo whole day stomach feels weird.
& I keep needing the toilet. ):

Last few days were just mj & trainings.
The usual uhh.
Next wed cant mj coz bro having exams :/
Ooo I'm still v sad I cant play vball well sighhhhh.
& my hands got so many injuries alr, ):
Turns out my pinkie still hurts :/
Ooo got 1 huge blueblack on my finger joint zz.
My ankles can seem to straighten alr why like tt ):
Walao I complaining like wad can.

Ooo next week gonna be more free.
Tml no work! (Y)
But no $$, really gotta save alr.. :/

Uhh I can resist bbtea temptations alr! :D
Well I think its coz I kinda got sick of them somehow O.O
Anw this is good! Save $$ :D

Sch's starting soon, in 16days.
No feeling for it, not looking forward.
Ohwell.

K I'm gonna eat dinner soon.

Bye!

2011-09-27T23:19:00.003+08:00

Vball training didnt go well for me today ):
Couldnt play it well.
Think I'm like the lousiest one there BIG SIGH.
Kinda left earlier, arnd 8.
I'm pretty sure if I stayed there any longer my mood will be dampened more. :/
Anw Wengleong taught me many things on how to hit the ball properly! :)
Hahahah thanks longhair boy. :)
Hmm now I dont really know if I wanna go for Thur's training though..

So I found out tt I'm one w high expectation of myself.
I see it as a must for me to do well in something I wanna do.
Eg, vball, freelance modeling, studies, or anything I'm doing.
Its bad actually, when I cant seem to do anything well enough..
I can't take any doubting of my abilities, or just my lousy performance.
True there will always be someone better.
But I will keep thinking, why cant I be the better one?
SOOOOOOO, sensitivity & everything just comes along w this.
Hmm but I'm trying to stay positive.
Like, I've been telling myself tt everything's fine.
Its working yeah, not as bad as last time alr :)
Just gotta keep it up & do my best! :)

MJ tml at my house w usual peeps HEEHEE.

Ooo can you believe it?
2 weeks left to sch reopen ):

Anw goodluck to ppl taking promos tml :)
I'm sure boyf will promo, he's so smart! Heehee.
1week left to end of his promos, 1month to go till Nov! :)

Bye!

2011-09-26T22:11:00.003+08:00

My TB02 girls! :)

Sat:
We went to this flea near city hall mrt, at Odeon Tower.
Super crowded & squeezy, coz the place's like kinda small.
Its a pub actually, but they cleared it for the flea.
Ofc bought lots of things! :)
Well I did control my spendings, esp when I spent so much alr :/
Anw had fun w them!
Even ate at Ben&Jerry's heehee :D
Will miss them next sem definitely..

Today:
Went for Outdoor Photoshoot!
5 outfits, quite tiring, keep walking arnd.
I hope the photos are nice! :x
Anw took photos at National Museum, Istana Park, Fort Canning Park.
Honestly nvr been there before HAHAHA count myself singaporean LOL.
Nice places!
Thanks IS Photography! :)
For the make-up & guidance & everything :)
OOO, I gotta learn how to do my own make-up.
Something like below:

Think this is too thick though. :/
But quite nice!
Needa learn how to put fake eyelashes, trim my brows, blahblah.
Coz right now I'm just waiting for my agency to call me up once I have a job.
Got 1 in Dec alr, cant wait to earn back $$! :)

& I got a baby nephew!
Gonna visit my cousins soon, & see the baby.
Aww I bet he's cute :)

K I'm tired.
Waiting for dar's msg & off I go to bed! :)

Bye!

2011-09-24T01:30:00.002+08:00

I WANT MARSHMALLOWS.

Hungry eh ): Always at this 1-2am timing ><

Anw gonna meet the buyers & traders later! :)
Finally get some cash in :) SOME ):
Ohwell, meeting TB02 girls later for flea! :)
Hope I see some nice things!
Maybe spent on 1 or 2? :x

Sigh, this week spent so much alr, I'm still spending.
Luckily there's work on sunday.
This way I can get to earn back abit :/

Ooo mum & dad approved alr.
After I showed them wad the agency is all abt.
Except for the amt I paid, I'm hiding it from my dad.
Sigh hate to hide it, but mum told me to :/
I will tell him once I earn it back I promised.

K gotta wake up early tml, sleep now.
Have a gd weekend ppl :)
Those having promos next week, all the best for your studying this weekend! :)
Esp boyf, jiayou okay! :)

Bye!

2011-09-22T20:28:00.003+08:00

Day 1 of my life w Create Talents! :)
Photoshoot didnt go tt bad.
Well it was surprisingly okay for a first-timer like me.
Hmm, did 10 outfits today.
All different styles.
I think I do better in the sexy&elegant style instead of formal & blahblah.
Ooo I like the bridal style too! :)
Photos will be here like arnd 2-3weeks time.
Lets hope it turns out well okay :x
Ooo this is 1 of the photos I had.
Taken by my make-up artist :)

Not the actual photo though. O.O
Gotta thank IS photography for everything they put inside my photoshoot uhh! :)

So called my mum to tell her abt this agency I'm working for.
Then its like, standard.
I always dont get my parents' support for anything I do.
I mean this is risky yes.
But surely there's gotta be some agencies tts trustworthy right?
I mean I believe them coz there really are evidence tt they do proper business.
So just support me can?
Somemore I pay using my $$, not you all :/

Sigh.
Was hoping things wont turn out this way but still.. )':

Meeting buyers tml from my fb shop.
Hope no cancellation of meet-ups uhh.

Sleeping early tonight coz I'm so tired. ><

Bye!

2011-09-20T01:14:00.002+08:00

CHALETS & BBQ :)
TB02 girls! :)

VBALL :)

Okay so been going for 2 chalets & bbq like this week & last week.
Just came back from TB02's one :)
Was damn fun!
We keep taking pictures uhh, & yupp gonna upload them on fb :D
Will post the nicer ones here though!
So far I'm only tagged in these few photos. :)
BBQ tt time I was the chef, ahahahahah pro anot? :D
Aww I think I really gonna miss TB02 & the funny ppl sigh.

K choosing of timetables is later when I wake up.
At arnd 3:30pm.
Its gonna be chaotic as 200 ppl will be choosing at the same time.
Wonder if system gonna crash hmm.
Really hope I get in the same class as my girls! :x

Job interview was okay.
Think I got it.
Well we shall see in the future..
PLS DONT LET ME REGRET ):
In need of an eng name now though.
Elva? Haley?
I like Haley, but there's a famous blogger called this too right? ):
Needing some suggestions here! ><

Dar's working so hard..
Really worry abt his health :/
Pls stay healthy okay!
I'll be there when you need me :)

Bye!

2011-09-19T00:19:00.003+08:00

SO.
Guess I'm only left w 1 month of holidays.
Sigh.
Today's the review of timetable day, tml gotta choose alr.
But my results..
I wonder if I can get the timetable I chose. :/

Work was alright.
Sales was okay :)
Just tt I was so bored at work I keep taking pictures HAHAHA.

Anw this week I'm gonna be quite busy.
Planned out many stuff alr.
For eg, wed mahjong w 2e6 peeps! HEEHEE
& Then gonna have a class chalet later on when I wake up.
I haven pack my bag yet LOL.
Hmm before chalet I'm going for a job interview..
See how actually, coz I'm going alone.
Which can be quite risky uhh :/
Dar's worried too, so maybe I wont go at all. ><

Been watching this anime & I think its quite nice!
Dk wads the eng name of it though ahahahaha.
Dont be surprised I watch anime, I started since sec1 ehh O.O

Last night had another HTHT w dar :)
Was bad really.
But I'm glad he's honest w me, abt how we are now. :)
I'm gonna try again, & even harder to change.
For him yes, coz I love this boy so muchhhh <3
I really want things to work out!
& I'm happy we're all trying :)
Things are good again! :)
Gonna let it stay this way :)

Sleep now!

Bye!

2011-09-17T23:27:00.002+08:00

Work today.
Sales were average! Thank goodness :)
Managed to sell out $200+ worth of baby stuff heehee :)
Lets hope tml is this okay too!

Ooo I succesfully sold out a pair of shorts from my fb shop!
So happyyyyyy, heehee.
Do support Pretty Little Closet on my fb thankssomuch :)
Yupp received another confirmed order today, gonna meet some of them this week!
Yay, business going smoothly ahahahaha.

Bought Gongcha.
Drank bbtea for the 5th time this week alr.
Today's cup will be the last one for the month. #icandothis

Other than tt idk why am I so happy today.
Since ystd was so bad, I guess things can change for the better :)
Good day good day, let it remain~

Gotta sleep early today.

Bye!

2011-09-16T22:16:00.002+08:00

Results suck. ):
ABCD all also have, just like sec sch times.
& ofc this ruined my mood for the day.
BIGBIG SIGH.

Anw headed to zh for training.
Today was alright.
Just tt at some point of time I feel tt some of the sec1s misunderstood my good intentions.
Afterall, they're just cadets..
& Wad am I? Perhaps just this small lil figure there to watch.

Didnt eat dinner w the peeps after training.
Headed home straight coz I was feeling upset, disappointed & all.
Seriously today was so bad.

Idk wad to do now.
Study hard next sem?
Always tell myself tt but wad happened.
Ugh I gotta forget abt unhappy stuff.

Work tml & sun.
Great, can earn somemore $$.
So, have to sleep early tonight!

Bye!

2011-09-15T21:51:00.003+08:00

Spy kids 4 & H&M shopping! :)

Today was funnnnnn, like really awesome. :)
Headed out w Naho, Jutan, & bro-in-law for moive & shopping~
I like H&M's clothes!
Bought two, couldnt find dar's one though. ):
I'm so going back to shop someday hahahah.
Naho, Jutan & I got the same bracelet too! :D
After shopping, rushed for movie coz we sortof forgot the time O.O
I'm always rushing for movies ahahahah.
K anw Spy Kids was cute!
I love the baby she's so adorableeeeee :')
Wanna bring her home hahahaha kd our baby would be cuter than her! :D
K then we went to Nex for arcade.
Think the person at the counter recognized us coz the prevous time we went,
We exchanged the coins like 8734762534375 times hahahahaha.
After arcade we had some xiaolongbao & icecream before heading home!
Spent so much today, so guilty ):
Luckily I'm working during the weekend. O.O

Mon went to apply for Gongcha at Nex.
But the person didnt call yet ):
Sigh. Guess I have to find another one ><
& slacked arnd Nex w Naho & Bro-in-law. :D
Arcade like for 3hrs plus?
Till we were late to go for the bbq at Pasir Ris w some vball peeps! O.O
Hahaha anw tt day was so tiring, but fun! :D
BBQ was awesome too! Pictures up laterrrrr~ :)

Ystd we played pool & went over to nia' house.
The usual peeps of 2e6! :)
Think my pool skills are improving, & germ's pool's the best!
Her ball can curve one ehh, & the curves are nice O.O
Hahah had a great time ystd too.
I really miss 2e6 ):

Ooo my fb shop kinda succesful. :)
I have orders alr, gonna meet 2 of them tml!
Let's hope they wont scam me alright.

Training tml too.
Gosh so busy ahahaha, busy business woman. :0

So now I'm waiting for dar to text me before he sleep.
Sigh, tt boy's working so hard nowadays.
Yeah its gotten down to 2 msges a day but its okay :)
Just wanna support him by his side, its enough :)

Other pics up soon~ :)

It was a good day, good day, pls let this remain :)

Bye!

2011-09-11T23:39:00.002+08:00

Heyyy! :)
Work was okay.
Except the sales, its lesser than wad I earned for the day omy.
Yeah I feel guilty, but yet I cant help it.
So lil ppl at nex today! O.O
Anw, take a look at my pinkie ):

Still as black ):
But not tt swollen anymore!
Sigh its still hurting.
& I cant stop complaining abt it HAHAHA.
Walao really hope it disappears, its so ugly! D:

Ooo I called gongcha just now & they got a few slots for us! :)
Yupp heading to nex again tml for some training thing I think.
Gonna be working w rj, vina & sarah! HEEHEE
Quite excited, coz I know I'll be earning alot more $$.
Which is good, real good :D
After work, hopefully I'll be able to attend friends' bbq at pasir ris!
Vina going w me too ahahaha :))

Tml's mooncake festival!
I wanna celebrate it w my family this time. :)
Haven eat a mooncake since ages. O.O

Ooo goodluck to all those taking promos tml ehh! :)

Bye!

2011-09-10T23:47:00.002+08:00

Today was an angsty day for me.
Morning my mood got ruined by my dad. ):
& I think lack of sleep or something.

Anw headed to zh for meeting.
Many many things to settle during december tt period.
Headache uhh headache,
The worst part, im afraid I dont have enough time to complete everything. ):
Sigh.

After meeting went to CCK for this GAGAFlea thing :)
It was organized by owner of the BlackSecret & UrbanBangs.
Both quite popular blogshops uhh!
Their stuff are really nice :)
I bought like 1 top & 1 dress heehee!
Went to town afterwards for more shopping at Scape.
Yupp bought 1 shorts lollol.
I think my spending's still quite okay.
Not over budget yet! HAHAHA
But ofc im gonna shop somemore, but tt will be in Oct! :D
Yupp I got gongchaaaaaaa :)
But im slowly getting sick of milktea alr.
Which is good!
I gotta stop this addiction soon ><

Went home feeling kinda moody,
Called boyf but he was busy w pw.
Called nex's gongcha outlet for job application also nobody answer.
So for tt 1hr I got so upset coz nobody answered my phone call ):
But I got better during dinner w family! :)

Ooo I started abit of my FB shop alr.
Really hope it'll be okay! :)
& tt I'll have business.
But I look at the things im selling, seriously I wonder who'll buy O.O
Uhh nvm have faith have faith! :))

The new fb is kinda pissing me off now..
Its like a bug or something.
SO LAGGY.

Have work tml!
Gonna turn in early today I guess.

Bye!

2011-09-09T00:12:00.002+08:00

Vball training today!
Heehee more ppl went & yupp those are my girls up there :)
Today's training was fun!
Played matches instead & I think they benefit more :0
But 1 sad thing, I injured my pinkie.
Now its swollen & blueblack! ):
Been complaining abt it all the way home on twitter hahaha.
Even took a pic of my pinkie.
Its so ugly & painful! ):
But thanks to those who showed concern! :) :)

Anw went home after training for dinner.
Been eating my dinner at 9plus tt kind of timing.
Its bad! I cant keep it going.
I might get used to it ><

Ooo its alr pass 12!
Happy 1year2months dar! :) <3
Gonna head out for lunch & movie :)
Night gonna meet those np peeps as usual.

Its a happy day after all. :)
Trying to maintain tt optimistic girl im now!

Bye!

2011-09-07T22:23:00.002+08:00

Came up w a To-Do List for holidays alr!
Suddenly feel like I got so many things to do now ahahaha.
Im gonna set up this fb page to sell my stuff.
Second hand one though..
Hopefully can sell them out la.
Im kinda excited at this idea though HAHAHAH.
At least I wont get bored.
Ooo im gonna visit H&M too, someday.
Then oct would be time for me to shop! :)
But ofc, im gonna take another job & earn more $$ first.
Soooooo, any job intros anybody? :) :)

So hmm, more of slacking today.
But I went out to get IOI.
Bought the large milk tea!
Ooo recently been drinking alot & eating too much.
Like wayyyyy too much.
Esp during the 10plus-12plus tt period. ):
Mum just told me im fat.
So depressing!
Decided to go swimming tml morning w my bro.
At night go for vball training.
Im gonna burn those fats away! *Determined*

Ooo things are good btw boyf & I :)
Thanks ppl for asking & encouraging!
Used to worry abt how things will turn out in the end.
But now, I guess not.
I believe we can work out a solution somehow! :)
Even if it doesnt.. I still tried my best. :)
& Ooo I really love tt boy of mine :)
Awwwwwwww. Hahaha.

Hope things stay this way though :)

Bye!

2011-09-06T23:15:00.002+08:00

6SEP2011 went to visit Nia at her workplace! :D

GO to Udders & eat their ice cream ppl!
Super awesomeeeeee :))
Went w rj to meet Nia for lunch,
Then slacked a few hrs at Udders.
I had awesomely chocolate & strawberry flavoured ice cream.
I think the chocolate one's super nice!
Cookies & cream not bad not bad heehee.
I wanna try the Lychee Martini one day.
Couldnt buy it coz underage O.O
See the first pic? I drew it on their wall!
So proud of my artwork ahahahahahaha :D

After tt went Ngee Ann for vball training!
Well my intention of going was to get some exercise done.
Since im so lazy to go exercise on my own :0
Anw had quite some fun heehee.
Gonna go on Thurs! (Most Prob)
Ooo I just rmb, I succesfully persuaded my bro to go swimming w me :D

K im tired.
Plus I think I hurt my thumb.
Kinda painful ):
Ohwell.

Waiting for dar to text me! :)

Bye!

2011-09-05T23:16:00.002+08:00

Went to watch glee today!
Was awesome.
Its something like JB's Never Say Never which I watched last night! :)

Decided to watch it this morning coz I was so bored at home. O.O
Had a good day though.
Went to visit my previous workplace,
Chatted w them, & helped make some bbtea LOL.
Dk if they still need me there to work hmm.
I seriously need another job when Nex's one is only on Sunday. :0
Im like wasting so much time when I can earn money :0

Anw gonna visit niania tml! :D
W rj, meet for lunch, have icecream at Nia's workplace. :)
After tt gonna head to Ngee Ann for vball training.
So long nvr play alr, skills confirm gone. ):
I miss vball training & the peeps though.
Hope naho & jutan going! :)

K long day tml.
Sleeping early tonight!
Lets hope tt my headache goes away shall we?

Bye!

2011-09-03T21:09:00.002+08:00

I had this hazelnut chocolate cake at Cafe Cartel ystd night! :D

K I swear its nice, but too sweet alr ><

Anw, happy birthday dad!

We went to eat at some place in ToaPayoh.
The food was okay.
Before we went there we sang bday song & cut the mango cake!
I didnt take a pic w my family though..
Yupp so wish you have a happy bday daddy. :)

Got home not long ago,
Am so tiredddddd.
Recently been like this, its v weird.
Work tml, gonna sleep early tonight!

Its been a ): day.
Coz boyf's phone reception getting super bad.
Annoyed me so much.
Ohwell..

Bye!

2011-09-02T13:05:00.002+08:00

Teacher's Day at Zhonghua :)
Made me realized how much I really miss the old times..

Performance was okay.
Think our video's the nicest heehee.
Hope the teachers like it :)

So went to talked to some teachers, esp Mrs Koh.
I couldnt find Ms Ting. ><
Anw I think Mrs Koh's my best teacher.
Like she really helped me alot, not only A Maths.
& She can rmb me, hahaha.
So many cant rmb! ):
Nvm nvm, spent some time in zh, went for lunch at Nex.

Met up w the rest of 4e6 peeps.
Haiya, some ppl still so fun to hang out w :)
Went Kovan to play some pool & arcade.
Met some zh peeps there too!
Aww really miss those times..

Think its quite sad tt during this holiday some ppl have to mug real hard for exams.
I shld be lucky tt my holiday is just doing wadever I want.
Poor boyf, gotta mug for studies ):

I finised my drama alr!
Now gotta look for somemore heehee.

Bye!

2011-08-30T20:46:00.003+08:00

Did alot of thinking while I was bathing just now..

Yupp this post is gonna be abt my rls stuff la.
So up to you if you wanna continue reading.

I thought abt how much I wanna let go of this rls,
& how much I really wanna hold on to it.
Its like I really cant take it anymore yet I know it would hurt deeper if it ends.
Its been 1year plus since we've been tgt & we've been trying v hard to maintain this rls.
I cant deny tt its so difficult till the point tt I wanted to give up many times.
& why does it hurt so much?
Its coz I made him my priority,
But sadly his priority cant be me.
It has to be studies, then rest, then my turn.
Yes I really hate it this way coz its just like im not impt to him.
Like he's not making any effort in this rls.
I know its not the truth, & I dont expect anything from him.
But I really cant help feeling disappointed everytime.
& yes it hurts whenever I received a text from him,
Although it can be less than 4 texts when he's busy.
Hurts more when I dont get any texts or calls.
Yeah its been kinda long since our last phone call..
But wad can I do? Wad can he do?
Poly & JC are alr two different things.
We're having our holidays now, they are gonna have their promos soon.
& once their promos end, we're gonna start semester 2.
Unfair isnt it, but wad can we do..

Idk wad he's thinking too.
We are alr communicating so much lesser now I dont even know wad he have on his schedule the next day.
I bet the same goes for him.
It feels like the distance is really getting bigger,
The understanding's getting lesser.
You know I kept thinking tt perhaps some other girl who understand wad he is going through would be better for him.
Or maybe he is alr talking to some other girl for the support tt he cant get from me.
You see the trust? No more trust when idk wads going on.
Sometimes, wouldnt it be better if we let go..?

Hahah still rmb he called me a liar & said I have no basic courtesy.
I believe he meant it, & till now still hurt quite badly.
Yes he did things tt once broke my heart.
I think I did too.
But I dont think I can forget this.
I still have weird dreams coz of it.
Dreams tt can ruin my day..

Ppl are telling me tt wads meant to be will be.
& wads not meant to be will just end.
If continuing this rls is so difficult for me then just end it.
There's no point crying so much everytime & getting my heart broken repeatedly.
& if he really loves you, he would do anything just to get you back.
No, im not gonna do it, idw to.
He knows tt he's neglecting me,
& he promised after it's over everything would be okay.
But I really wanna know if he still loves me, or he's just playing along..

So many reasons to give up,
but one main reason not to.
I still love him, like alot.
I wanna continue this rls.
I wanna be there for him whenever he needs me.
So wad if I feel lonely.
I gotta trust tt he wont leave me alone.
I believe tt he's tired too, from studies & everything..
I just have to take this shit if I wanna continue.

But for now, I think I shld back off from wanting his attention..
Its the best for him to conc.
& I wouldnt be able to drag him down anymore.
So wads this?
A love close to letting go, but I'll always be there.
Supporting him, hoping the best for him.
I just hope tt after all this, he'll still rmb im around..

I believe all my tears would be worth it.
All my efforts would be too.
Nov im waiting for you!
Come quick.

2011-08-30T00:58:00.002+08:00

No pics for today!

Went for squad bbq, but in the end keep raining.
So our fire couldnt start properly. #fail
In the end some ppl have to bring back the food.
SOOOO, after tt nth much alr.
I went home, the rest went to play at Ehub.

Idk why but today I really v tired.
Like can sleep anytime one.
Went home, bathed, & napped for 1 hr!
Before watching On The Fringe.
Now it's over alr, ):

Hmm k Tues's my slacking day.
Wed onwards have some plansssssss :)

Sigh.
Been treating dar quite badly recently..
I understand studies are v impt,
Esp when promos are so near.
But I cant help feeling neglected somehow..
& now im just dragging him down w all these thinkings.
Idk wad to do..
Nov quickly come pls ):

2011-08-29T00:30:00.002+08:00

Look at my face.
Not born pretty.. ):

Work was boring.
But okay at least I earned some $$.
I can treat dar alr :D

Im tired uhh, back damn pain.
Think work also made me lost some weight.
I look at my arms I feel disguested man.
Thin like skeleton, not nice! ><
Sighhhhhhh, how to be satisfied w myself ):

K going squad's bbq tml.
For awhile I think.
Guess I would be really tired.
Haven been getting enough sleep these few days.

Recently really not good.
Mood like going on a roller coaster ride.
My holidays really bad ):

What to do?

2011-08-27T23:55:00.002+08:00

ELLO.
No pics recently boohoo.

Started work alr, since fri night.
I think its still alright,
just tt im not good at promoting stuff.
I bet the sales dropped when I work. SIGH
Ohwell, at least its still okay..
Got work tml too, last day.
Hope they can call me to work somemore,
I really wanna earn some cash.
Im like despo for $$ but actually im not.
I just wanna work to stop myself from thinking so much..
THE THING IS, Im working alone.
Beats the purpose when business not tt good for the whole day ):

Im gonna missed family gathering at my couz's house tml ):
Coz work till too late to go over & meet them ):
Aww so long nvr see them alr!
My couz just scolded me coz she cant see me tml HAHAHA
But I bet they dont wanna see me, they wanna see my boyf -.-
Looking forward to the next gathering! :)

Recently watching Sunshine Angel.
Quite nice quite nice. HEEHEE

K hope tml's business can be better.
Then I wont feel tt guilty ><

Bye!

2011-08-25T22:39:00.002+08:00

I think the pic not v nice ):
Was taken at Nex' skypark.
Dark alr, so quality suckssssss

Anw headed to Nex to check out my workplace.
SECRETLY.
So I pretended to be this shopper walking past the shop. :D
Anw it looks okay to me :0
Training starts tml!
& sat sun working full day.
Been telling myself no income, cant spend.
SO, im happy I can finally earn some $$. :D

Bought bbtea from shuiyanse too.
& I found where gongcha is! HEEHEE
Trying to control my bbtea addiction & its working.
1 week 3 times alr.
Gonna change it to 1 week 1 time! :0

K now I got nth to do since im done w this post. -.-

Bye!

2011-08-25T00:47:00.002+08:00

Last paper today,
& I thought it was pretty well done.
Didnt expect myself to complete the paper confidently :)
Sooooo, a B maybe?
B is good enough.
Im not gonna get into uni anw.

Went back training for the last hr,
& really really quite headache abt some problems.
Ofc I wont say here.
Just hope tt I can solve it fast.
& Yc made me think so much abt taking a team today.
I really doubt my abilities la,
& to admit, Im scared.
Scared of failure, coz tts wad I always end up w.
& many many more things tt I know I cant take a team.
Sigh, tonight cant sleep alr.
Gonna think of soooooo many things.

Anw holiday start alr.
But it doesnt feel like a holiday to me..
I know why.
But saying it doesnt make a difference.

Gonna find a job asap.

Happy holidays ppl.
Enjoy it while you can :)

2011-08-23T22:56:00.002+08:00

Been studying the whole day w rose at skcc.
Finished all the chapters arnd 8.30!
Was there since like..11.30?
Its crazy wad poly education are doing to us okay..
Got home, sat down & suddenly I wonder,
Wad am I fighting so hard for.
Answer is idk.
Not for anything, not for anybody, not for myself.
Just idk.
Idk wad to look forward to,
Idk wad can I earn from,
Idk wad to comfort myself w at the end of the day.

So wad exactly, am I fighting so hard for..

Tired, stressed, dk wad to do anymore.

2011-08-22T17:19:00.002+08:00

ZOOKEEPERRRRRR

The movie was okay!
Not v funny, I thought it was so went to watch it. >(
Anw was feeling pretty down after paper,
Im positive I will get a C or below for it. ):
So decided to do something I thought can cheer myself up w.
In the end both comedy & koi cant work ):
Right now im still worried abt my Stats paper.
I just want a pass can alr ><

Left w the last paper on wed..
2 days to holidays.

Im worried for boyf! ):
Always chiong hwk till so late, later fall sick how? ):
Hate it when we are slaves of education.
Really hate it.

Only gonna start revision at night.
Hope its gonna be an easy paper too..

Bye!

2011-08-21T20:54:00.002+08:00

Was being a good girl & studied! :)
Seriously B Stats shld just test on formula application & not theory.
I didnt touch on theory at all!
Wondering if I have the time to do it tml morning ):
& Ooo I just understood some chapters when revising just now.
Right before the day of exams. #winalr
Finished revising but no confidence.
Im pretty sure I'll flunk the test tml.. ):

Ooo met boyf for lunchhhhh.
But I felt bad, like im always the burden or something.
Him being so busy yet still spending time w me.
Sigh.
Now I feel like pushing you away coz its best for you ):

Having a headache now. D:
Anw gotta go prepare stuff & sleep.
Goodlucks for test tml peeps!
& 2 days left to holidays! :)

Bye!

2011-08-21T00:31:00.002+08:00

Needing some motivation to get me going..

OB paper today wasnt tt bad.
At least I think its almost the same as MAEC.
Well 2 down, 2 to go.
Left w Stats on Mon, BMGT on Wed.
Today's sun, so 3 DAYS LEFT.
Cant wait for the holidays to start yet I'm dreading it at the same time..

I finised BMGT revision quite sometime ago,
so I reckon I've forgotten everything!
& I merely touched on Stats. ):

Ooo been having weird dreams at night. >(
I can still rmb them!
& they kinda ruin my day.

No snacks at home.
Im gonna buy them tml & keep everything to myself! :)
Just KD, but I really need food.
Am hungry now! This timing -.-

I shld stop whining & complaining likabitch.

bye!

2011-08-18T22:31:00.002+08:00

SO, how's everybody's revision getting along? :)

mine's good so far,
just tt i have utterly no confidence for my MAEC paper tml.
likeeeeee i just know i wont do well even if i studied the whole day today. ):
but it was a productive day! 11 chapters! :D

recently been talking to ppl whom i haven talk to them in ages :0
glad to find out they still wanna be friends w me :)
& ofc tt they are doing fineeeeee. ahahah.

feels like im reminiscing the past.

goodlucks for your papers ppl! :)

bye!

2011-08-15T22:45:00.002+08:00

HAD MY STRAWBERRY SOYA MILK ICE CREAM TODAY <3

finally i get to eat it! HAHAH

anw went to sch for dss quiz.
was alright!
not gonna think abt it anymore coz ITS OVER :D
no more dss from now onwards!

then headed to nex to meet my longtimenosee friends! :)
kc & zj~
got the $$ from him, now im not broke anymore!
hahaha.
walked arnd, grabbed choco pancake to eat :D
watched harry potter too!
think its kinda disappointing, not as nice as i thought it would be ):
ohwell, at least i wont think of watching it anymore!
can focus on studies more alr. :0

didnt film the teacher's day vid today.
aww.
we gonna change it to wed though!
so tml, study study study.
wed, slack abit hahahahah.

dar's gonna be busy this week ):
so i shall do my part & focus on my studies too!

sighhhhhhh.
tell me wads going on in your heart.

bye!

2011-08-14T19:55:00.002+08:00

Study session today w my girls!
Rose & jingwen :))
Skcc's study room really super quiet.
Its a good place to study!
Think im gonna go there to study alr (Y)

anw met dar for lunch today.
ate macs & im not coughing! :D
long time since i ate fast food, long timeeeeee.

dinner w family today, just opp my house:

tts my bro & many ppl think we're twins ahahahaha

then went home.
got a dss quiz tml.
thnk im prepared for it.
hopefully its not tt tricky! ><
after tt meeting the long time no see ppl for video taking :))

dar's doing hwk, & idw disturb.
SO i shall study now.

bye!

2011-08-13T00:44:00.002+08:00

had training today!
morning supposed to study w rose but plans ruined.
gastric early in the morning & i cant do anything till noon -.-
anw was supposed to study w yc too!
but in the end went to eat manhattan then buy some stuff, no time alr.
SO I DIDNT STUDY TODAY. ):
but im determined to do it tml onwards.
like serious mugging.

anw training was..disappointing.
im gonna find ways to improve my sec1s' attitude & performance.

after training was dinner w ms tan!
pity cz & bloo couldnt join us.. ):
we ate at this dimsum place, & we ordered alot!
like down there:

BUT WE MANAGED TO FINISH IT

in the end all of us v full.
treated ms tan! :)

reached home like kinda late :0
& im super tireddddddd.
slept like 4hours ystd only ><
& my cough starting to act up again. ZZ

think dar fall asleep alr.
recently keep falling asleep on me! hahaha

k think i shall turn in soon.

bye!

2011-08-10T23:45:00.002+08:00

Took some time to recall wad boyf said ystd..
Well the more impt parts.

So there's one part tt goes like we shld celebrate our anniversary yearly.
Instead of monthly.
Im okay w this so i guess we gonna celebrate it yearly! :)
I know we are all busy,
& we shld really spend more time on studies.
If not, really die alr. Sigh.
so these few months guess we'll be meeting less often..
or none at all.
gotta conc on my exams, & he gotta conc on his promos.

Ooo there's another part tt goes like,
whenever the boyf says a girl is pretty, its just a casual remark.
think i will need time to accept tt..
yeah time heals everything, just have to believe in tt.
i'll stop my stupid eyecandy stuff too, to be fair.

to stop myself from thinking so much i'll just have to keep myself busy.
SO, this 2 weeks, study like MAD.
next few months, work till sch reopen.
yeah i'll get to earn some $$,
then i'll stop complainin tt i have none.

why's maintaining a rls so difficult..

2011-08-10T22:33:00.003+08:00

twitter on my laptop cant work properly.
like i can only see my timeline & nth else. :0
its getting quite annoying alr.

anwww, im back!
well ystd's national day & it seems like everybody had fun.
i missed out on the fireworks though.
i heard there's heart-shaped ones! ):

ooo im uploading my dance video on fb ahahahah.
dont laugh at our dance pls. LOL.

k it was our 1year1month ystd.
2nd national day alr lol time flies.
watched captain america!
think its kinda nice, just tt ending was weird.
like.."really finish alr?" tt kind of feeling. HAHAH
didnt manage to buy harry potter's one though. ):
kinda regret not going w my classmates the other day!
no fate w harry potter uhh, no fate. ):
before movie we went to eat at eighteen chefs.
this lil place at simei.
ehh the food really good okayyyyy, plus its kinda cheap! :))
ate till v full.

i only ate halfway, dar ate finish alr. :0
anw it really is v nice!
wanna go back & eat again someday.

after movie we went to changi airport for astons!
forgot to take pic T.T
wah the food there nicer, & cheaper OMG.
sian all the food talk making me v hungry alr. ):
after tt bus-ed homeeeeee.

think i will have another post later.
its too long to squeeze into oneeeeee. :0

bye!

2011-08-06T22:57:00.000+08:00

Anw, pictures for the week!

2011-08-06T14:36:00.003+08:00

Can't take it when dar talks abt pretty girls.
Still can't.
Freaking ruins everything.

I'm okay now!
Left w cough only, so many things I still can't eat.
Tts sad okay,
Been eating fish soup for 3weeks? ):
Mum bought hokkien mee for my lunch today.
W chili!
Think tonight I will continue to cough like free.
SIGH.

I still haven start studying.
I shld really get my ass down to sch next week & STUDY.
Even though I don't have to..
Who's w me? :))
I really can't study at home.

I wanna recover faster & drink bbtea.
Sigh.

Bye.

2011-08-01T22:29:00.002+08:00

harlo.
im still not recovered ):

left sch early most of the time coz the uncomfy-ness always kicks in.
lost my voice.
so not cool.
cant even order my food myself ><
but its coming back la, i think :0

anw i think im dead for my tests coz i haven start studying. ><
& i haven start doing any tutorials for this week yet.
if only i wasnt sick uhhhh,
could have done so much more things rather than sleeping -.-

ooo i didnt get to meet dar today coz i went home early ):

life sucksssssss

bye

2011-07-23T18:47:00.002+08:00

this fever killing me sia.. ):
been having it for 3 days alr.
the fever keeps subsiding & then coming back!
like no ending one.
at night's worse,
keep waking up & couldnt sleep back coz i feel so horrible. D:

been to 3 doctors.
the last one said i got dengue fever.
idw to go hospitallllll D:
this week got presentation & needa hand in pbl2 alr.
but idk how to get well..

sigh my parents' having cold war.
this is affecting me so much.
really hate it la.
sometimes i feel like they dont care whether im fine anot.
& my dar's behaving like he dont care too.
idk wad to do la really.

i haven do my tutorials & print my notes. ><

really v tough for me to take D:
sigh.

2011-07-17T22:32:00.003+08:00

angsty dayyyyyyy.

morning procrastinating then didnt do any work -.-
purposely brought hwk out to do.
had meeting at central macs.
wah seriously dont like it when some ppl like to give trouble.
so this week's gonna be a headache for some of us.
sighhhhhh.
i know my turn would come also.

went to wendy's after they left & did hwk.
goodgirl94 only.
yeah i finished MAEC!
left dss e learning & b stats.
well tt shld be fine i guess..

anw gonna meet the fred perry bag supplier on wed.
to pay her $$ & hope the bags arrive soon~~

sch tml ):
but on a brighter note im helping out w sports fiesta!
earn cca points plus get to watch match heehee.

k i go pack bag.

bye!

2011-07-16T23:58:00.003+08:00

july 16 sucks.
but ben&jerry's lemonade sorbet made my day.

pbl2 was fine.
town was fine.
there were fireworks :0
but it sucks when i get home & my mood flared.
for no reason!

was hoping today would be different.
but i guess not.
emergency meeting tml @2.30.

sigh.

2011-07-15T23:48:00.002+08:00

hihi, haven been blogging for quite sometime.

anw these few days i was kinda busy.
coz of vball, then pw.
i think i didnt touch my laptop also.
july sucks ):
im tired of being so tired.
& i thought things would be easier since im alr adapting.
but no, things just have to crash in..

had IJ & hiphop lesson.
IJ sucks.
hiphop stressful.
gahhhhhh, they are not even counted in gpa!

pw again tml.
looks like we're gonna have it weekly alr.
sighhhhhhhhh,
when can we dont rush for pw?

anw i shld be heading down to scape tml night.
look for jingwen & her store.

sun's gonna be my chiong hwk & revision day.
sigh.

bye!

2011-07-11T22:48:00.002+08:00

i.dont.understand.econs. ):
sigh.
its the only thing tt got me so stressed up nowadays.
i tried doing the tutorial,
but every qn also dk how to answer.
read through the notes,
still dont understand.
i think i really needa spend more time on it.
if not, gg to my gpa ><

anw today kinda suck.
wasnt in the right mood to do stuff & PBL 2 have to crash in.
like seriously why is sch work so confusing?
plus deadline so close! ):
sighsighsigh.
just wanna get everything done la.

ooo, tml got vball training.
not v looking forward to it alr.
sigh.

just count how many sighs i have in this post.
SIGH.

k gotta pack bag now.

bye!

2011-07-09T23:38:00.003+08:00

1 year & still counting :)

today's our anniversary! <3
time really flies,
its like so fast 1 year alr :)
anw morn had workshop & dar had pw meeting.
so we met in the afternoon at nex!
ate at DTF,
then we watched mr popper's penguins.
kinda nice, & quite funny too! :)
headed to town, walked arnd for awhile before having dinner at ramen play.
my gastric kinda spoiled my appetite & mood ):
but in the end it was alright! :)
dar bought something for me & i didnt!
now i feel bad )):
shall brainstorm on wad to give him later :D

got home, bathed & here im.
anw im starting to miss dar again.
hahahahaha, <3
i believe we can last forever. :)

k no more going out.
time to save $$, & revise for the eos. ><
tml's gonna be a busy dayy.. ):

bye!

2011-07-06T23:26:00.002+08:00

idk wad to say but im really stressed up.
too many things to do,
too many things i needa brush up on.

this year's been bad, really bad.